I am here in Kansas City, it has almost been one week and the weather has been very hot. And it's very humid as well. The Lord is good though, every building I have been in has air conditioning...so I am doing very well transitioning from Alaska. This time has been so lifechanging, these past few days have brought so much good news into my life and I've also came to learn more about Jesus' heart which is just amazing. At the beginning of the week I felt like just another girl who happened to show up here. But God has been speaking to me through all of these messages, this is no accident and His desires are for me to recieve more during this season. I have been asking God for his heart for the nations. I want to be filled with compassion even more for those in the unreached parts of the world. There is just so much to learn and so much to do. It's a bit overwhelming, but I feel God in my small moments of prayer and when I am speaking with him alone. He has had desires for my life that I am just learning about while I am here. He has a plans that go far beyond my small vision and plans. There is no doubt that this is where I am supposed to be at this time.
The first few days were a time of consecration. These days were so precious to me. I know that I can't rely on my feelings and sometimes I want to, but when I pray I feel so close to Jesus' heart, it's been so easy to speak with him. We have a very busy schedule and a whole lot to think about at the end of each day, I try to pray alone every day, just to get some time with Jesus during those times. And its been good. I just pray that all that I am learning will really drop into my spirit and set me aflame for the nations. I do have a desire to go to the nations, I just want my zeal to be stirred up because I know that Jesus is carrying a great zeal for the nations. The world is ready and I want to be too.
Leaving home for the first time has been pretty difficult. I haven't gotten homesick yet, but just not being in Alaska trips me out sometimes. I feel like I have gotten grace to get through this first week here in Kansas City, especially with the hot climate. My room mates are pretty awesome too. I have two roommates from Michigan and China. These two amazing women have really been given to me by God for this time. They are so encouraging and I am fascinated by their lifestyles and their desires to pursue God is evident in all that they do. It's been so encouraging. And a good boost.
All in all...we are preparing for something new. All 30 of us.
The Antioch Center for Training and Sending is going to change my life.
I can feel it.
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